No Wonder My Pants Don’t Fit….

So, I’m pregnant. 4 weeks.That’s not really in the cards for John and I right now. We’ve discussed it. The abortion is scheduled for the end of this month. I’m not going to say it’s necessary but it seems to the best decision for the both of us at the moment. The last thing that either of us needs is a baby to add to our schedule. I love him to death and I want a baby with him, but now’s not a good time. Neither one of us are ready to take that step and be able to deal with everything that comes along with being a parent. I understand that John doesn’t want to consider adoption because he doesn’t think that he would be able to go through with it if we went through the process; so this is the easiest way. It will be like $375 plus a drive to Harrisburg, but in the end it will be worth it. We will both be able to get our lives back and not have to worry about the sea creature doing flips inside my stomach. The sooner things are taken care of the better things will be and we can all get on with our lives, except the fetus of course…


9 comments on “No Wonder My Pants Don’t Fit….

  1. Hi there, I know you already have your abortion appointment scheduled, but I just hope you could take a moment to consider if the life inside of you was truly just a “sea creature”. It is a human life in an early stage, it is a very, very, young child. I hope you would consider that perhaps there will never be a perfect time to have a child, but that a child is always a gift. Life is always a gift. If life is worth making sacrifices for, everything will work out and fall into place. Perhaps it won’t be perfect or ideal, but life is never perfect or ideal. But it is beautiful regardless. My father was an abortion survivor, and I am thankful every day for that miracle, if not for which I would not be alive either, let alone have my own children in the future. I wish you and your family the best.

  2. If you decide to choose life for your child, also know that there are many community organizations and nonprofits that will help support you and your family financially, physically, and emotionally.

    • I’m taking everything into consideration, trust me. I just consider it neglectful to give birth to a child that I am not able to give adequate attention to or adequate support in all forms. We struggle as it is to make things work, I can’t bring myself to give birth to a child that we aren’t ready for. My own mother had me way earlier than she should have and sometimes it seems like she didn’t want me. I’m not willing to do that to another human if I can avoid it.

      • I understand where you are coming from, thank you for sharing something so personal. Just remember that you are in control! How your mother treated you will not define the way you will treat your child. And though you were an “unplanned” child, it seems that you are happy to be alive and are grateful for life! I believe your child deserves to continue to live simply because life is a gift in itself.

  3. I had an abortion august last year at 11/12 weeks gone, i have suffered emotional distress since but I still uphold it was the best devision. I hope everything goes ok for you, and prepare for an emotional rollercoaster afterwards.

  4. I know you have put a lot of thought into this, and you really seem to care a lot about children and ensuring that they have a good life. Please just let me offer one piece of advice: don’t take pregnancy for granted. I did, and now I am not sure if I will ever be able to have kids. Please don’t take it the wrong way. I just wanted to offer another perspective. Pregnancy and motherhood isn’t easy, but you can do it. There are lots of free pregnancy resources out there: diapers, cribs, help with rent. Please, please reconsider your decision. If you need anything, anything at all, please let me know. I’d be happy to send you my contact info.

    • I wanted to thank everyone for the thoughts/comments that they made in regard to my pregnancy. I will still end up doing what I feel I should in the end. There are many risks that must be taken into account and in the end everything will affect my decision.

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