John seriously just called me to get directions and pretty much did nothing but yell at me the entire time he was talking to me. First of all I’m not good with directions, especially when I have no idea of anything in the area. Second I was only going by his verbal ques of where he was, and third nothing was going to get accomplished with him starting to yell at me because I’m incapable of giving him an instantaneous response. Either the call dropped or he hung up on me twice while I was trying to help him. There was no reason for it. Of course now I’m sitting here crying not only because he upset me, but because I pretty much couldn’t help him, I’m not sure if I did at all because now he isn’t answering his phone at all. He knows I’m not good with directions and I have no clue whatsoever what is near Milesburg, let alone where the exit for interstate 80 or their high school would be. Like Fuck, do you seriously expect that much from me, because you’re going to be drastically disappointed. I suck at everything that consists of my actually needing to have common sense.
So John came back from the gunshow where he was trying to sell his WWII figures and other stuff. Thankfully it was at least worth his time to go. I assume he had a good time as well, which is also a plus. He has started listing some of the 1/6th scale figures on Ebay and thankfully that also seems like it will work in his favor. I am slowly paying off the stuff that has built up over the past few months on my credit cards, and things seem to be going fairly well on the monetary aspect of our lives. I’m glad that John is working the job that he has and I just hope that we can get through these next few weeks of the semester and then we can move on. I recently found out that I am taking 3 different classes this coming summer. I really hope that this isn’t too much for me to handle. I need there to be some element of relaxation to the upcoming summer. I also need it to be pretty productive in reference to paying off the rest of my credit cards and saving money for the upcoming semester and for John to be able to go on vacation with his family this summer. I still haven’t figured out if I am going to be able to afford to go, but I really want to make it so that at least he can go, I know it means a lot to him. I mean I’m only 19 but considering I’ve been able to get this far with my life overall, I’d say I’m not doing too bad on my own.
It seems like an eternity since I updated my blog last. Since we are kind of at that make it or break it point in the semester, I have been putting most of my energy into making sure that John and I will have the points that we need to get decent grades in our classes. I’ve been trying to help him as much as I can, and I might as well get used to it now if I plan on being a cop’s wife. There’s definitely going to be a lot of sacrifice in the long term, but he’s definitely worth my time. We are engaged now, I don’t know if I mentioned it since it happened, but the every lovely John Walker is now my wonderful fiance. I’ve just been trying to get caught up with all the housework and things that I needed to do. Having John gone again this weekend since he’s at a class with Dom makes it easier for me to clean. I just miss him of course, especially since he was gone all of last weekend as well and during the week I usually seem him a few hours at most, aside from when we’re sleeping. I actually managed to put in a decent amount of hours this week at work as well, so I am extremely happy about that. I am slowly starting to be able to pay off the credit card debt that I have since I put John’s one year/engagement gun present on my card. It sounds like it was a bad decision but it was actually a pretty good one. I love him so much and I’m happy that I have the opportunity to do nice things for him. Of course I occasionally feel under appreciated, but who doesn’t feel that way from time to time. I’m excited to call him my fiance and to have him in my life for the long term. I know we might have to be apart the next few years with him getting into the academy and training and my finishing college, but we’ll make it work. It’s not like we really see each other that much now anyway with the way our schedules work, but I would take not seeing each other as much in exchange for actually being financially stable for once. It’s definitely a good feeling.
So I woke up pretty early this morning and made my way to work. I get there and see my coworker standing in Subway so I walked in. She then proceeds to buy me coffee and thus started my pretty awesome morning. As soon as my boss came in I could tell that he was in a decent mood for once, which also made me happy. I hate working with him when he’s upset, it’s just unpleasantly awkward. I also left a bunch of items on my desk from Friday that I forgot about. These being pretty simple, yet time consuming and can easily get me through my morning, all while being very productive at the same time. I’m hoping that the rest of my day continues going the way it has so far. I talked to John earlier and his day isn’t really going as he planned but I’m hoping that it doesn’t really affect my mood since I’m doing pretty well today. I kind of wish that Matt was here, but he called in sick, so I’m on my own in the back of the store pretty much. Things could get interesting by the end of the day!