Irritability, Christmas Trees, and Pretty Nails

The last few days have been rather interesting for me internally. I’m not entirely sure why but I have been pretty irritable for almost two straight days. The smallest things have been setting me off at a moments notice and that in itself has been driving me even more nuts than my being irritable. At this point I feel bad for John since he has had to put up with me being a bitch for the past couple days when he hasn’t really done anything wrong. Literally, things as simple as looking at his face, hearing him chomping on food, or his youtube video watching has been driving me up a wall so to speak. Example: even right now, apparently we are supposed to be finding a movie to watch. The xbox is already on and it’s just sitting there on the home screen because he’s watching random gun videos on youtube on his laptop. These things just boggle my mind sometimes considering I know it’s not a big deal, like it doesn’t even matter, but it still is bothering me just because it can apparently.

On the bright side I feel like our Christmas tree looks exquisitely pretty in the way it looks in the apartment. I prefer white lights over the colored ones that John insisted on, but I still think the tree looks pretty nonetheless. I might be a “fun killer” in the way of my decorating tastes but I am still willing to let him override my decisions and decorate whatever way he sees to be fit. I will say though that I did a terrible job stringing the beads across the tree. The beads look very uneven from any angle that one looks at tree. There are also a lot more at the top of the tree than there are down towards the base. Of course there are a plethora of attractively wrapped presents piled underneath it as well which just compliments its appearance even more.

Lately, I have been having issues with getting my nails to grow out without breaking off or chipping and I have decided to try to actively find a solution to the problem. The entire time that I was growing up I always used to chew on and bite at my nail. Even back then I knew that it was a repulsive habit, but for the longest time it was the most obnoxious habit that I had. Now that I have broken that habit, I still can’t seem to get my nails to grow that well. Luckily, they seem to grow evenly I have just been having an issue with the length. I was shopping for some odds and ends items this morning and I found a discounted bottle of VitaSurge growth gel which is a growth treatment created by Sally Hansen. After reading the box I decided to give it a try since I only paid a few dollars for it anyway I figured that it was worth the risk. I didn’t look that closely when I picked up the box that the bottle came in, but there is no brush. The applicator almost looks like the same applicator used for sticks of lip gloss. Originally I thought that it was supposed to be like regular polish, but it is this wet gel that you just cover your nails with and rub into your nails. According to the bottle the user is supposed to see results in five days as long as the product is used properly, so I’m anxious to see whether or not it actually makes a difference for my nails. The actual gel is very interesting to look at as well. It is a bright green color and has these small blue balls suspended in the gel. Visually it is quite appealing to the eye 🙂

Update: Work & Such

We have finally got cameras and camera lenses back at work again. This makes me beyond happy, especially since I have been the one who has been working on them. It makes my day a lot less stressful when I know I will be spending a decent portion of my day working with cameras. Back when we used to have a full staff cameras were pretty much the only thing that I really worked on, it was basically the area I specialized in. Now that we are down to there just being a few of us I have had to take on a lot more responsibility wise. Having cameras to focus on and just having to throw in a random item here and there for right now is beyond awesome. I guess I like cameras more because they are time consuming in a way, but they sell well and they are just the type of item I prefer to list on eBay. Listing cameras also brings up the number of items that I list during the day because I can get more cameras listed than I can just random items because I don’t have to take the time to look up each and every individual camera to try and figure out what it is. I can just go off of one of the other ones that I have already done and go from there. All in all, it makes my work day flow much smoother, decreases my stress level, and makes me much happier.

I’ve started keeping track of my calories and what I have been eating again. I have increased dramatically in my weight since I stopped keeping track of things. This item was attempted to be powered on. Realistically, I just can’t deal with the way that I feel. Ever since I stopped keeping track I have been a lot more tired and overall I have felt like complete shit. I wouldn’t say that I am “dieting,” just that I am keeping track of what I am eating. Typically when I keep track I tend to eat less and I tend to eat more things that are at least slightly healthy as opposed to when I don’t keep track and eat like complete shit all the time. I hate the way that I look and I have made attempts in the past but I’ve never really stuck with it, mostly out of lack of time and desire to do so. I just feel drastically unattractive and I need to change something about the way that I do things. I feel even worse about it because I know that John feels bad about his own weight and I can’t really help him to get through his own issues if I myself eat like crap all the time and keep gaining weight. On top of everything the fall semester is finally over and it’s not like I really have anything else to keep me occupied.