Spaghetti Dinner, Friendly Dogs, “Friends,” Togetherness, and Sleet

Last night we met John’s parents at their house and then we went with them to a spaghetti dinner that they usually go to at a church near where they live. I’ve only ever gone with them one other time since I have been with John. I don’t actually eat spaghetti so it’s, in theory, counterproductive for me to go. I ate some salad at least and socialized with John’s parents, but I feel bad that I don’t eat spaghetti and they donate money to the church on my behalf anyway. On the brightside we were able to get through a meal with his parents without any major issues, which is always a plus. We were at the church for about an hour and then we went back to John’s parent’s house.
John’s parents have his cousin’s dog since she isn’t exactly in a good position to take care of it effectively. John and his dad went to the basement to do some gun stuff and his mom went on a trip to CVS so I was left sitting in the living room by myself. As soon as I sat down the dog decided that it was going to pounce on me and basically tried to rape me. He got a little too excited and kept trying to hump me, completely unprovoked of course. This hasn’t ever happened to me before yesterday so I wasn’t exactly sure how I was supposed to handle it, but eventually the dog stopped and laid down after a decent amount of my pushing him away. Once John’s mom came back the dog got excited again and tried to hump my shoe. I hadn’t really realized just how much strength a medium sized dog actually has until everything happened, I was kind of surprised. Their dogs are also prone to destroying their dog balls so we ordered two from Amazon that are supposed to be “indestructible,” but the odds of that are unlikely. After ordering the balls we started watching a movie until John decided that he was ready to get going.
Once we finished at his parents we went to go visit Crestani so that John could pick up some patches for his reenacting clothes that he needs to get sewn on. As far as I’m aware he never even got the patches by the time we eventually left. When we first got there Swanger and Dom were already there playing x-box. So we started hanging out for a little while and Dom tried on John’s battle belt that he was considering buying. At one point Crestani was literally lying inside his closet of his “war room” because he was apparently tired, which would make sense if Dom and Swanger have been keeping him up late playing his x-box and just being generally obnoxious. They seem like the type of “friends” that just try to use people for what they can get out of them, in this case free x-box usage. I’m not exactly sure why he doesn’t just stand up for himself and tell them to screw off, but you never know with all of them. They all act like they are friends, but realistically they all have conflicts with each other and none of them are truly happy with the rest of their little “group” of friends. The way that they interact with each other reminds me of high school girls with the way their cliques are set up. If I were any of them I would be so over the entire situation. Overall I feel bad that John stopped to get the patches and never actually managed to get them before we left.
KP, Crestani’s ex, also came up at one point and this just reinforced why I dislike her. Realistically, I’m sure he’s a player, that’s just the way he is, but I know she acts pretty psychotic with the way she can be a controlling bitch. If you aren’t dating someone, you aren’t together. Period. This isn’t something that is controversial or situation dependent. It’s just straight up fact. She was upset that apparently five months or so ago he had commented on some girls photo and she found it on Instagram and was throwing a fit about it. I get that she feels like someone is threatening her territory, but she needs to get a grasp on reality and realize that if they aren’t together he is no longer her territory, whether he claims to care about her or not. Considering they’ve been off and on for about five years he claims that he’s bored with her, which is understandable. This of course, instantly made me think of John. I’m petrified that he is going to get bored with me. I don’t feel like I’m an interesting person and I don’t want him to get bored with me and leave for someone he finds more attractive or more intriguing than I am. I get that we are engaged but anymore divorce is so common that I still get scared that he is going to leave some day if I am imperfect, which I realize is a completely unrealistic idea. However, this is the way that I think and I’ve accepted that.
Last night John and I stayed up decently late and I ended up being late for Young Marines this morning, which honestly I basically forgot that I was supposed to be there at all. The main problem was that it was sleeting fairly hard when I got up and I didn’t feel comfortable to drive to McElhattan by myself. Luckily, John got up and he offered to drive me in exchange for my buying him breakfast, which was definitely worth it. I managed to get done everything that I needed to get done and I finally got the new schedule for this year. The only thing wrong with that is that the schedule is currently incomplete since they don’t have the schedule for the river lot where they take the kids yet, so the entire thing could very well end up changing.


Parks and Recreation, Waiting for Ordered Items, and Prospects of Change on the Horizon

I have made the commitment to begin watching a show on Netflix called Parks and Recreation. So I woke up this morning, naturally, around 8:15 and I started to let the show play while I started making my to-do list for the day. Now that the to-do list is finally completed I decided to, while still watching Parks and Recreation, to make a journal entry. This entry of course I will end up copying over as a blog post because my thoughts end up much more organized that way than the cluster fuck that usually occurs when I just type and ramble, which is what I typically do. In the way of Parks and Recreation review I’m starting to understand why the show has 4 stars on Netflix. I’m on season 5 now and the show has literally only made me laugh a handful of times, but I still feel like I want to know what happens. There are certain film techniques used that makes it awkward, but other than that I don’t really mind it that much. One or two of the main characters are basically in the category of “drop dead gorgeous” so I’m sure that probably helps with their ratings overall. Like every other show they also have those relationship pairs that every girls finds appealing and knowing what happens to these couples becomes like crack to every lonely white girl with too much free time.

Seeing multiple couples get married over the course of the show so far has made me realize just how much I care about John and jow uch of a permanent fixture he has become in my life and that makes me unbelievablely happy. We’re verging on two years together and he means a lot to me and I love that he is always here for me and that we have a great support system between us.Our relationship has developed a lot like a Philodendron grows: There are occasionally some bad leaves that need to be eliminated for the overall halth of the unit, which then makes way for the new vine grown. Being a vining plant it wil contine to grow along with us and change over time, just as the two of us will within our relationship.

As I have broken the clasp on my leather-bound journal I decided to buy a new leather-bound journal to replace the one that I have now. The new one has a different design on it than the one that I have right now. I debated for the longest time over whether I was going to just get a new copy of the exact journal that I have now, but I asked for John’s opinion on what he thought that I should do and he told me that he thought I should get something different and exciting, so that’s exactly what I did. I love the pattern on my old one but I ended up getting one that I thought was pretty cute. I’m waiting on the new journal to come in the mail. Supposedly it should be here on Saturday, but I’m a little skeptical since there is a holiday that interferes with the timing. However, maybe the postal service has actually allocated for the holiday in the shipping estimate that was provided when I placed my order the other night. Among the last minute sale items that I have ordered I got a new neoprene camera case with a new memory card since I’ve never had a case for my camera. I’ve noticed that there has been a decent amount of damage to it over the past four or five years. John’s mom gave me Amazon gift cards for Christmas, among other things, part of which I used to buy John and myself the next two seasons (5 &6) of NCIS to add to our collection. To top it off I was online and found a new manual treadmill that I really like. There were fairly decent reviews for the one I bought and I’m looking forward to when it gets here and I can try it out. I’ve never really looked into manual treadmills, but I guess they are set at a slight incline so as you step forward your momentum and force will move the belt forward. This also engages more muscles than a regular electric treadmill, which makes me happy. Aside from that, Christmas wise, I received: moccasins, a scarf, a wallet, jewelry, a plethora of tights and knee high socks, cookies, gold rimmed glasses, tea tree oil foot spray, coffee mix, a kitchen aid mixer, ceramic baking dishes, soup/sandwich bowls, chocolate covered spoons, hot chocolate stir sticks, Christmas decorations, a decorative glass jar, candy, an air plant, a Christmas cactus in one of my long-dead relatives’ planters, and some bath/body lotion products.

The only thing remotely close to a “resolution” that I plan on working towards is that I need to make a conscious effort at not being such a procrastinator about everything in my life. Unless a list of things gets made for me to work toward I typically don’t get very much accomplished and honestly, I’m quite sick of the way I have been. So, I’m hoping to change that at least a little, but hopefully a lot.

While I was at Clint & Court’s house last night we ended up talking about her dad and the apartment that is above his work shop in Avis. This apartment would give us another room for John to use to store all of his stuff. On the plus side I love this apartment, I would be closer to work, and it would make doing laundry and everything else a lot easier for me, since we would have a washer/dryer in the apartment. I know John would have to commute a little farther to work, but overall I think we would be happier than we are now with no room. One thing that makes me excited about the Avis apartment is that there are so many windows that light up the entire apartment that you basically don’t really need lights on in the building. Also, we wouldn’t have to deal with neighbors being obnoxious because we really wouldn’t have any neighbors around us, or at least in our same building anyway.