I was working on making dinner earlier tonight and part of that involved moving my textbooks and things off of the dining room table. While attempting to gather my things into a box I was stung under the arm by what I think might have been a hornet. John then came home and I finished up the last few miscellaneous things that I needed to do to get dinner together. We finished eating and he went to go get a shower. I talked to him for a few minutes and then grabbed my bag since I planned on heading to the living room. As I was walking back through the dining room I was stung, again, by what I believe to be the same hornet that had stung me earlier. By this time John had finished up getting a shower and had come to kill the bee for me. The little bastard managed to sting me in both arms, in inconvenient places. On the bright side, apparently I’m not allergic to hornets.
My boss has been on vacation since the 16th. He, his wife, and his grandson will be getting back into town later tonight. Tomorrow is going to be interesting to say the least. I liked having them gone, but at the same time I’m interested to see how their trip went. I’m sure that Theresa will have a bunch of stories that she’ll eagerly want to tell. I was nice having a break from them for a little while they were gone, but I’m kind of glad they are finally going to be back. I haven’t had much time to list many items on eBay in the last couple weeks, so I’m looking forward to being able to get some more of it done.
I have about a month left before classes start and I feel like I haven’t done much at all. I need to step up my motivation and get some more stuff done, but I just feel constantly exhausted. There’s just so much to do and I don’t want to do any of it… I’m dreading going back to school this fall. I’m just generally discontented at the moment and I don’t know what I want to do with my life. Obviously whatever I’m doing now is currently not working and I need to change things. The only real question is where to start and whether it’ll even make me happy anyway. Maybe I’m just meant to be eternally confused about my life…
Friday I got up and ran off to work pretty directly once I woke up. Work was pretty bland and nothing too interesting actually happened while I was there. After work I came straight home and started cleaning up a little because Uncle Lynn was coming by to finish up working on the fridge. Since we got the fridge we hadn’t been able to make the water or ice maker work. Luckily, all we ended up needing was a different filter and there was an extra black ring inside that needed to be removed. Even just the past few days have been so much better having a way to effectively make ice. I’ve definitely drank more water over the past couple days. I did a little bit of cleaning up after that and then spent the rest of my night watching Netflix.
Saturday I woke up, cleaned some more, and had to run off to the bank. On my way back from the bank I passed my parents house and realized that my mom had my little sister with her so I stopped in. I started getting tired while I was there so I decided to come home and try to sleep for a little. The last thing that I planned on doing was take a four hour nap, but that’s exactly what happened. About the time I got up I had to get my stuff around and head to my parents because they invited me over for dinner. I didn’t realize that my sister would still be there for dinner, but I’m kind of glad that she was. After dinner I came home to shower and get ready to go watch the fireworks down town with my cousin Emily and her boyfriend Casey. After the fireworks were over we made a trip to Denny’s. It was pretty nonchalant, but I was definitely third-wheeling pretty hard. It seemed a little weird since John wasn’t there. By the time I got home it was almost midnight. Sleeping was a definite problem though. I actually didn’t end up falling asleep until this morning.
I started cleaning up the dining room while I couldn’t sleep. I finally slept for a little and then got back up to clean some more. For once I finally managed to clean the dining room. It’s been something that has been on my to-do list for longer than I’d like to admit, but it’s finally done. After cleaning I went to my parents again for dinner. Once we finished eating my mom came with me to buy groceries. At this point I’m just hanging out, watching Netflix, and waiting for John to get home. I actually think that I’m going to give up once this episode is over and nap until John comes home.
On the bright side I’m starting to get over this cold. There were only a few different times today that I went into a fit of coughing. Overall today was pretty good, I just wish I could sleep better.
It’s always said that things always get worse before they get better. Apparently that’s true. I woke up this morning trying to make myself believe that I felt fine. I got a shower hoping that that would make me feel a little better. I managed to get myself around for work and got my things together. Unfortunately by about 11 a.m. I was starting to go downhill pretty quickly. I mentioned that I wanted to go home, but that I needed the cash so I planned on staying. Since Bryan, my co-worker that bought my van, was there he mentioned that he could get me a little bit of the money that he owes me if I waited until he came back from lunch. That sounded like a reasonable plan, so I held out for a little while longer before I clocked out. I decided to clock out around 1:30 and head home. Bryan didn’t give me enough to compensate for what I would lose by leaving work that early, but I really didn’t feel well and I didn’t care at that point.
On the bright side when I got home I at least got to see John for a little bit before he had to leave for work. I have been trying to sleep off and on, but so far I haven’t been that successful. I have been resting at least though, so I’m hoping that it helps. Not long after John left I felt like a bug flew into my mouth, which made me gag until I vomited, but I’m not entirely sure if there was even an actual bug… Hopefully after getting some sleep tonight I end up feeling better because I really don’t want to miss any work tomorrow if I can avoid it. When it comes down to it though, I really don’t want to sit at work completely miserable though either. It’s not like I’ll get better any quicker by pushing my body beyond the point that it can effectively withstand.
I spent Monday morning hanging out with John. Once he woke up I made up breakfast and we watched Netflix for a while. Then he left to go shooting with his friends before he had to go to work. So while he was gone I spent the rest of my day cleaning our kitchen and part of the bathroom. I planned on working on cleaning up some more today, but I woke up this morning to a cold and currently feel like my head wants to explode. I’ve been tossing back cough syrup like clockwork, so hopefully that starts kicking in soon.
I still went to work today though so I’m fairly happy about that. I ended up being clocked in a little over eight hours by the time I ended up leaving. I was by myself most of the day because two of my co-workers decided to call off. In a way I prefer being alone, especially since I was sick. I feel worse about working when I’m sick because I don’t want to get anyone else sick either. I’m sure that the two that called off are probably going to be pretty pissed off when they find out that they aren’t going to be getting paid for the holiday since they didn’t show up today. One of them hurt his back and the other apparently had “stuff” to do.
At this point I’m hoping that sleeping will make me feel better. I currently plan on going to work tomorrow, but I’ll definitely reevaluate when I wake up in the morning. I don’t want to miss work because I need the money, but at the same time I don’t want to spread my germs around. On top of that if I’m sick to the point that I don’t make them money it isn’t worth them paying me to be there, so it’s better for everyone if I just stay home. Even now I’m having trouble focusing. That might be partially because it’s 2 a.m. and I’m just now starting to get tired, but also because of this cold. Maybe this is why I didn’t really feel like doing much this past weekend….
Summer isn’t exactly going as planned. In one aspect I’ve definitely gotten to spend more time with John, which is a definite plus. On the other hand I still haven’t gotten to get as much done as I was planning to. I need to step up my game a little bit, even if I don’t physically feel up to par.
Physically I have been feeling better in some ways and worse in others. My stomach has only flared up a few times in the past month, but I’ve been having joint pain and really frequent headaches. My health insurance is in the process of being renewed so I haven’t had a follow up with a doctor recently, but I’ve been documenting the symptoms when I remember to and I’ll deal with it once my insurance gets straightened out. The joint pain seems to be hitting my knees the most that I have noticed. I keep switching back and forth between keeping them bent and straightening them out. However, after a couple minutes they seem to be irritated no matter what position they are in and I have to switch or fidget around. Of course it gets a little better when I take naproxen, so the unpleasantness seems to be coming from some sort of inflammation. When I am working I have noticed that my elbows, towards the inside, are unpleasant if I even remotely touch them to my desk or attempt to rest them there momentarily. The fevers have been random from what I can tell. The headaches have been the worst of it though. They’ve been almost daily. Sometimes Excedrine Migraine pills help and other times they don’t even tough the symptoms. I’ve experimented with my caffeine intake, sugar intake, and eating habits in general and nothing seems to be the trigger. Exercise doesn’t seem to affect them either, so at this point I don’t know what they are coming from and it’s driving me crazy. My sleep schedule has also been affected as well. Up until now in my life I have never had a problem with sleep, but lately I have been having a tough time falling asleep and seem to wake up a lot during the night. Waking up is partially due to the ridiculous nightmares that I’ve been having, also almost on a nightly basis. I just feel like even when I’m sleeping I’m not getting decent rest.
I did finally get around to putting my laundry away, then folded John’s, and put most of his away. We started a movie before he went to work earlier and he wants to finish it later tonight. So I’m supposed to be sleeping, but instead I’m writing this because I couldn’t fall asleep. I should probably have given some thought to what we were going to eat for dinner, but I haven’t managed to do that either. We have a frozen pizza, so odds are that I will probably just make that tonight so it’s easier to deal with.
I have felt sort of depressive over the last week or so. That might have been from the events of this week, but this past week was more difficult than most. As my car was going to run out of inspection I borrowed one from John’s parents since they had an extra. When I went to start it I heard a loud pop and white smoke started pouring from under the hood. Of course I shut the car off as soon as my brain processed what was going on, but there was still damage. John ordered the parts that he needs to fix most of it, but there was still a part that he couldn’t find online. As far as I know he plans on going to see if he can find one used. I had planned on using their car for the foreseeable future, but that ended up not being an option. My parents then bought another car, but they bought a PT Cruzer, which I dislike. I am hoping that my mom decides to drive that and then I can have her older car, but we’ll see which she ends up picking. I ended up selling my old, uninspected car to my co-worker Bryan. He knew what all was wrong with the car, but he wanted it anyway.