Operation Finish 2k16: Installment 2

Today was a little less productive than I would have liked, but I still managed to get a few things done overall. Some of this was due to my lack of ability to sleep last night. I had slept for a couple hours before John got home from work, but then I had a lot of trouble trying to get back to sleep once he decided he was ready for bed. Then, I actually woke up before my alarm even went off. Given my restlessness, I just got up and got ready to go to my neurology appointment.

By the time I was done getting ready I realized I had a little bit of time to spare before my step-dad was supposed to be here to pick me up. I took advantage of the time and updated my to-do list for the day. From there I started working on the Christmas cards that definitely should have been sent out already. However, I’m giving this year a “better late than never” when it comes to a lot of things in my life.

The neurologist that I was referred to by the people who did my lingual nerve repair surgery doesn’t seem to be helping all that much. The last time that I was there, before today, she told me she wanted to wait a year and see if anything changed. Well, when I got there today that’s exactly what she told me again. She didn’t bother to do a damn thing about the entire left side of my face, neck, and part of my shoulder being numb… but yeah, let’s wait another year and see if anything else happens. Last time I was there they told me that if there was going to be any nerve regeneration it would happen within a year of surgery date… As of right now, the year mark was actually three days ago… So I’m not very hopeful at this point. I would definitely have to say that I’m getting used to it being numb. There are days where I barely notice it anymore, but if I think about it or if someone asks I can instantly tell that it still feels exactly the same. I have also noticed it if John touches my face or shoulder. I can tell that he’s doing it, but it just doesn’t feel the same as if he touches my right side. I’ve pretty much accepted that the left half of my face is just going to be numb at this point. If a doctor wants to try something I’m all for it, but no one even seems to know what to try at this point. Even the neurologist that I have been seeing has had to ask for assistance from another neurologist because she wasn’t even sure what could have happened. From what I can understand my MRI results were fine, my blood test results were fine, and my nerve looked fine when they went back in to see if it was damaged. Given all of that, I shouldn’t be numb according to them, yet there it is…

After going to the neurologist my step-dad and I stopped at Home Depot. This was the first that I have ever been inside one. Whether it’s just this location or if it’s all of them, the organization inside this store was so terrible that it actually hurt my head a little. The entire store is such a cluster-fuck, pardon the language, that I have no idea how anyone can find anything they’re looking for. They had make-shift isles that were about 10-15 feet long and had one way in, but not enough room to turn a cart around, and didnt’ have an exit area. So to get in you either had to leave your cart in their already narrow isles, or push it in and walk backwards to get back out. I didn’t see anyone attempt backing out while I was there, they just seemed to leave their carts haphazardly in the isles, in the way. Now don’t get me wrong, I’m definitely chunky, but I’m not that bad. There’s no way that I could have even passed one of their carts in the main isle with the way they had all of their Christmas display areas set up. We spent about a half hour looking for some cordless planer that you couldn’t even buy in the actual store. They were only available online and were even out of stock there. I set it up for them to send an email whenever the item does get back in stock, but I have never tried using their system before so I don’t have any idea how long that’ll take.

After shopping we drove to Lamar to Denny’s and got lunch. John had finished installing parts in his truck at this point and met us there. The food was delicious as always and I ended up bringing leftovers home because I have trouble finishing my food when we’re there. Once we finished eating John and I headed back towards home, but we didn’t even make it there before the garage called and said his truck was done being inspected. From there we turned back around, picked up his truck, and then headed to his parents to drop off the car that we have basically been borrowing all summer. We ended up being there a lot longer than I planned, but it was nice to see them at least. I’m just hoping that we can get through the holidays in one piece and get 2016 over with. I’m beyond over this year and I want to get on with my life.

I finished up the Christmas cards when we got home tonight and then started right in on my insurance renewal application. It’s primarily just a giant pain in the ass and I’m glad that I don’t have to think about it any longer.

New twist: I found out earlier today that I have to start my internship a lot sooner than I thought. I actually have to be there at 9 a.m. tomorrow morning to start tax school training. In the mean time, John opened a couple of his Christmas presents. One of which was a shot glass so we’ve been drinking off and on this evening. I plan on putting a decent dent in the bottle of wine I opened tonight also. It’s an Apothic Inferno 15.9% bottle, which I’ve been looking forward to opening since the beginning of the semester. John bought it for me shortly after the semester started and we indirectly ended up saving it for after finals.

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Operation Finish 2k16

Now that finals are over there are a pile of things that I have to finish up. I managed to put a small dent in the things on my list today, but I have a long way to go. Later today I have to go back to the neurologist and see what they have to say about my face still being numb. It’s been about a year since I was there last. There hasn’t been any progress, but there hasn’t been any deterioration either. I honestly have no idea what they’re going to do about it.

I got a few of my grades back as well. I managed to pull off an A- in my Capstone class! I never expected that to happen. I got an award at the end of the class for group presentation abilities, which is now framed on the wall as well. I also got an 84 on my final exam for operations and productions management, which is a lot better than most of the exam grades I typically get. So I’m definitely happy with the way my semester is shaping up.

Today I did manage to finish up the Christmas cocoa mix jars I was making. It actually ended up costing me about $2.00 per jar to get everything done. It was definitely worth it in the long run. It took me a little while to get them made, but I’m happy with the way they turned out. On top of that I managed to fold all of our clean laundry, list a jacket on eBay, balance my checkbook, pick up my birth control, and prep two of John’s eBay packages for shipping. Doesn’t seem like a ton of progress, but at least it’s something 🙂

Pipes…

Over the summer we started having drainage complications with our pipes. At the time I didn’t think anything of it and it has just gotten increasingly worse. For the past month we’ve been trying to avoid using our sewer lines at all if we can help it. Needless to say that’s been a giant pain in the ass. I’m approaching my breaking point with the entire situation unfortunately. It hit me pretty hard this morning and by the time I got to work it was bothering me a lot. So I, more or less, gave John an informal ultimatum about the pipes. I know that he has been hard on himself about the entire thing, so I didn’t really want to push him at first because I knew it would just make things worse. However, the ground is going to start freezing and if he doesn’t do anything about it then we won’t be able to replace the pipes until spring. If we have to wait until spring it’s going to drive me completely crazy by then. Hell, it’s already driving me crazy now. I’m just hoping that he doesn’t get upset with me for pushing him to get it done. It’s been worse because they’ve had him working days and it’s dark before he even gets home. Getting him to get up before work is like trying to pull teeth and stresses me out even more… There aren’t too many options to work with here and I’m not entirely sure what I’m going to do if he doesn’t get moving on this project.

I would hate to think of him as a “starter”, but that’s kinda what it looks like at the moment. He has a handful of projects that I’ve noticed he started, but the odds and ends never get finished. There’s minor painting of the trim in the gun room that still needs attended to, the carpet needs laid, and a door needs made for the attic. Then the other day I was standing in the driveway while he was at work, just looking around, and noticed that he hadn’t finished staining the outdoor table that we’ve had for a while. I know there are a few projects that he has definitely finished, but there are also several that are still sitting in queue waiting for his attention. Maybe I’ll actually have a decent amount of time to help him after May.

At this rate I’m so looking forward to being done with school. I’m just terrified that I’m not going to be able to find a job. I have no idea what I even want to do and I feel like I’m not qualified to do any of it even if I did see that someone was hiring. I have absolutely no clue what I want to do with my life. At this point, I don’t feel like I even care what I do for a job, since working isn’t what I want to do anyway. I would much rather be a house wife than anything else at this rate. I desperately wish I had the time to do the things that need done around the house and it kills me that I can’t.

What the Royal Hell…

We’re currently one week away from finals. This will be my last full week of classes for the semester, followed by finals week. I have a couple exams to study for and a few final group presentations to take care of. At the moment these few things seem like they don’t even matter. I found an internship for the spring semester with Jackson Hewitt. I will primarily be doing individual tax returns for people. They don’t do any corporate returns or anything like that so unless someone has a personal business it shouldn’t get too complicated.

John and I have decided to put a hold on our open relationship status and focus on our relationship together for a while. Things have seemed better between us since we decided to focus on the two of us. It doesn’t seem surprising that things got better, and I’m definitely happier with it. We also set a wedding date for March of 2018. This coming March was just too soon to try to get everything ready and I should graduate in May so that should make things a little easier. I’m really excited about it and I’m excited to start planning, but I think I’m going to wait until after graduation to start the core of the planning. At the moment I just don’t have the time.

However, the main plot development to my life at the moment is something entirely out of my control. Don’t you just love those? I know I do… Anyway, to the point: My mom decided to run off to live in Connecticut with my current step-dad’s brother Lynn. It’s literally as messy as it sounds unfortunately. My step-dad is devastated and my mom is pretending that everything she is doing is perfectly fine. I would yell at her if I thought it would make any difference, but I know that she would just ignore me and then play it off like I was being mean to her and then make it my fault for attempting to get her to see reason. When it comes down to it I don’t really care what she does, but I don’t agree with the way that she went about it. There is certain protocol to follow and she completely disregarded it. Hell, she didn’t even say goodbye to my sister or me, let alone tell her husband that she was leaving him.

 

Calm Before the Storm

This weekend has been one to remember. Neither John, nor I had much of anything going on yesterday so we bailed on any perspective plans and spent the day together. Once he woke up we decided to get lunch in State College at CC Peppers for cheese steaks. Afterwards we went to a movie and saw the next installment in the Bourne series, Jason Bourne. It was interesting to say the least. I think the prices are starting to get kinda ridiculous when it comes to their concession options though. I think for popcorn and a drink it was over $10. The actual movie price was only like $8 a ticket which didn’t seem too high. Either way I had a nice time, and I’m hoping he did also. Once we got back home we did some miscellaneous grocery shopping and then grabbed a quick pizza for dinner. Then once we got around to getting food today we went to The Old Corner and hung out for a couple hours. Since then I had to go to work, and John will be going in shortly as well. Once I finish working I think I am going to go home, take a quick nap, and then see about cleaning up a little bit until I have to give my moms car back later tonight.

I wish that every weekend could be like this, but unfortunately I go back to school soon and I’m sure things are going to get hectic.

Hornets are Dicks

I was working on making dinner earlier tonight and part of that involved moving my textbooks and things off of the dining room table. While attempting to gather my things into a box I was stung under the arm by what I think might have been a hornet. John then came home and I finished up the last few miscellaneous things that I needed to do to get dinner together. We finished eating and he went to go get a shower. I talked to him for a few minutes and then grabbed my bag since I planned on heading to the living room. As I was walking back through the dining room I was stung, again, by what I believe to be the same hornet that had stung me earlier. By this time John had finished up getting a shower and had come to kill the bee for me. The little bastard managed to sting me in both arms, in inconvenient places. On the bright side, apparently I’m not allergic to hornets.

Anticipation

My boss has been on vacation since the 16th. He, his wife, and his grandson will be getting back into town later tonight. Tomorrow is going to be interesting to say the least. I liked having them gone, but at the same time I’m interested to see how their trip went. I’m sure that Theresa will have a bunch of stories that she’ll eagerly want to tell. I was nice having a break from them for a little while they were gone, but I’m kind of glad they are finally going to be back. I haven’t had much time to list many items on eBay in the last couple weeks, so I’m looking forward to being able to get some more of it done.

I have about a month left before classes start and I feel like I haven’t done much at all. I need to step up my motivation and get some more stuff done, but I just feel constantly exhausted. There’s just so much to do and I don’t want to do any of it… I’m dreading going back to school this fall. I’m just generally discontented at the moment and I don’t know what I want to do with my life. Obviously whatever I’m doing now is currently not working and I need to change things. The only real question is where to start and whether it’ll even make me happy anyway. Maybe I’m just meant to be eternally confused about my life…

Weekend Productivity

Friday I got up and ran off to work pretty directly once I woke up. Work was pretty bland and nothing too interesting actually happened while I was there. After work I came straight home and started cleaning up a little because Uncle Lynn was coming by to finish up working on the fridge. Since we got the fridge we hadn’t been able to make the water or ice maker work. Luckily, all we ended up needing was a different filter and there was an extra black ring inside that needed to be removed. Even just the past few days have been so much better having a way to effectively make ice. I’ve definitely drank more water over the past couple days. I did a little bit of cleaning up after that and then spent the rest of my night watching Netflix.

Saturday I woke up, cleaned some more, and had to run off to the bank. On my way back from the bank I passed my parents house and realized that my mom had my little sister with her so I stopped in. I started getting tired while I was there so I decided to come home and try to sleep for a little. The last thing that I planned on doing was take a four hour nap, but that’s exactly what happened. About the time I got up I had to get my stuff around and head to my parents because they invited me over for dinner. I didn’t realize that my sister would still be there for dinner, but I’m kind of glad that she was. After dinner I came home to shower and get ready to go watch the fireworks down town with my cousin Emily and her boyfriend Casey. After the fireworks were over we made a trip to Denny’s. It was pretty nonchalant, but I was definitely third-wheeling pretty hard. It seemed a little weird since John wasn’t there. By the time I got home it was almost midnight. Sleeping was a definite problem though. I actually didn’t end up falling asleep until this morning.

I started cleaning up the dining room while I couldn’t sleep. I finally slept for a little and then got back up to clean some more. For once I finally managed to clean the dining room. It’s been something that has been on my to-do list for longer than I’d like to admit, but it’s finally done. After cleaning I went to my parents again for dinner. Once we finished eating my mom came with me to buy groceries. At this point I’m just hanging out, watching Netflix, and waiting for John to get home. I actually think that I’m going to give up once this episode is over and nap until John comes home.

On the bright side I’m starting to get over this cold. There were only a few different times today that I went into a fit of coughing. Overall today was pretty good, I just wish I could sleep better.

That Fantastic July Cold

I spent Monday morning hanging out with John. Once he woke up I made up breakfast and we watched Netflix for a while. Then he left to go shooting with his friends before he had to go to work. So while he was gone I spent the rest of my day cleaning our kitchen and part of the bathroom. I planned on working on cleaning up some more today, but I woke up this morning to a cold and currently feel like my head wants to explode. I’ve been tossing back cough syrup like clockwork, so hopefully that starts kicking in soon.

I still went to work today though so I’m fairly happy about that. I ended up being clocked in a little over eight hours by the time I ended up leaving. I was by myself most of the day because two of my co-workers decided to call off. In a way I prefer being alone, especially since I was sick. I feel worse about working when I’m sick because I don’t want to get anyone else sick either. I’m sure that the two that called off are probably going to be pretty pissed off when they find out that they aren’t going to be getting paid for the holiday since they didn’t show up today. One of them hurt his back and the other apparently had “stuff” to do.

At this point I’m hoping that sleeping will make me feel better. I currently plan on going to work tomorrow, but I’ll definitely reevaluate when I wake up in the morning. I don’t want to miss work because I need the money, but at the same time I don’t want to spread my germs around. On top of that if I’m sick to the point that I don’t make them money it isn’t worth them paying me to be there, so it’s better for everyone if I just stay home. Even now I’m having trouble focusing. That might be partially because it’s 2 a.m. and I’m just now starting to get tired, but also because of this cold. Maybe this is why I didn’t really feel like doing much this past weekend….