Operation Finish 2k16

Now that finals are over there are a pile of things that I have to finish up. I managed to put a small dent in the things on my list today, but I have a long way to go. Later today I have to go back to the neurologist and see what they have to say about my face still being numb. It’s been about a year since I was there last. There hasn’t been any progress, but there hasn’t been any deterioration either. I honestly have no idea what they’re going to do about it.

I got a few of my grades back as well. I managed to pull off an A- in my Capstone class! I never expected that to happen. I got an award at the end of the class for group presentation abilities, which is now framed on the wall as well. I also got an 84 on my final exam for operations and productions management, which is a lot better than most of the exam grades I typically get. So I’m definitely happy with the way my semester is shaping up.

Today I did manage to finish up the Christmas cocoa mix jars I was making. It actually ended up costing me about $2.00 per jar to get everything done. It was definitely worth it in the long run. It took me a little while to get them made, but I’m happy with the way they turned out. On top of that I managed to fold all of our clean laundry, list a jacket on eBay, balance my checkbook, pick up my birth control, and prep two of John’s eBay packages for shipping. Doesn’t seem like a ton of progress, but at least it’s something 🙂

Pipes…

Over the summer we started having drainage complications with our pipes. At the time I didn’t think anything of it and it has just gotten increasingly worse. For the past month we’ve been trying to avoid using our sewer lines at all if we can help it. Needless to say that’s been a giant pain in the ass. I’m approaching my breaking point with the entire situation unfortunately. It hit me pretty hard this morning and by the time I got to work it was bothering me a lot. So I, more or less, gave John an informal ultimatum about the pipes. I know that he has been hard on himself about the entire thing, so I didn’t really want to push him at first because I knew it would just make things worse. However, the ground is going to start freezing and if he doesn’t do anything about it then we won’t be able to replace the pipes until spring. If we have to wait until spring it’s going to drive me completely crazy by then. Hell, it’s already driving me crazy now. I’m just hoping that he doesn’t get upset with me for pushing him to get it done. It’s been worse because they’ve had him working days and it’s dark before he even gets home. Getting him to get up before work is like trying to pull teeth and stresses me out even more… There aren’t too many options to work with here and I’m not entirely sure what I’m going to do if he doesn’t get moving on this project.

I would hate to think of him as a “starter”, but that’s kinda what it looks like at the moment. He has a handful of projects that I’ve noticed he started, but the odds and ends never get finished. There’s minor painting of the trim in the gun room that still needs attended to, the carpet needs laid, and a door needs made for the attic. Then the other day I was standing in the driveway while he was at work, just looking around, and noticed that he hadn’t finished staining the outdoor table that we’ve had for a while. I know there are a few projects that he has definitely finished, but there are also several that are still sitting in queue waiting for his attention. Maybe I’ll actually have a decent amount of time to help him after May.

At this rate I’m so looking forward to being done with school. I’m just terrified that I’m not going to be able to find a job. I have no idea what I even want to do and I feel like I’m not qualified to do any of it even if I did see that someone was hiring. I have absolutely no clue what I want to do with my life. At this point, I don’t feel like I even care what I do for a job, since working isn’t what I want to do anyway. I would much rather be a house wife than anything else at this rate. I desperately wish I had the time to do the things that need done around the house and it kills me that I can’t.

What the Royal Hell…

We’re currently one week away from finals. This will be my last full week of classes for the semester, followed by finals week. I have a couple exams to study for and a few final group presentations to take care of. At the moment these few things seem like they don’t even matter. I found an internship for the spring semester with Jackson Hewitt. I will primarily be doing individual tax returns for people. They don’t do any corporate returns or anything like that so unless someone has a personal business it shouldn’t get too complicated.

John and I have decided to put a hold on our open relationship status and focus on our relationship together for a while. Things have seemed better between us since we decided to focus on the two of us. It doesn’t seem surprising that things got better, and I’m definitely happier with it. We also set a wedding date for March of 2018. This coming March was just too soon to try to get everything ready and I should graduate in May so that should make things a little easier. I’m really excited about it and I’m excited to start planning, but I think I’m going to wait until after graduation to start the core of the planning. At the moment I just don’t have the time.

However, the main plot development to my life at the moment is something entirely out of my control. Don’t you just love those? I know I do… Anyway, to the point: My mom decided to run off to live in Connecticut with my current step-dad’s brother Lynn. It’s literally as messy as it sounds unfortunately. My step-dad is devastated and my mom is pretending that everything she is doing is perfectly fine. I would yell at her if I thought it would make any difference, but I know that she would just ignore me and then play it off like I was being mean to her and then make it my fault for attempting to get her to see reason. When it comes down to it I don’t really care what she does, but I don’t agree with the way that she went about it. There is certain protocol to follow and she completely disregarded it. Hell, she didn’t even say goodbye to my sister or me, let alone tell her husband that she was leaving him.

 

Calm Before the Storm

This weekend has been one to remember. Neither John, nor I had much of anything going on yesterday so we bailed on any perspective plans and spent the day together. Once he woke up we decided to get lunch in State College at CC Peppers for cheese steaks. Afterwards we went to a movie and saw the next installment in the Bourne series, Jason Bourne. It was interesting to say the least. I think the prices are starting to get kinda ridiculous when it comes to their concession options though. I think for popcorn and a drink it was over $10. The actual movie price was only like $8 a ticket which didn’t seem too high. Either way I had a nice time, and I’m hoping he did also. Once we got back home we did some miscellaneous grocery shopping and then grabbed a quick pizza for dinner. Then once we got around to getting food today we went to The Old Corner and hung out for a couple hours. Since then I had to go to work, and John will be going in shortly as well. Once I finish working I think I am going to go home, take a quick nap, and then see about cleaning up a little bit until I have to give my moms car back later tonight.

I wish that every weekend could be like this, but unfortunately I go back to school soon and I’m sure things are going to get hectic.

Hornets are Dicks

I was working on making dinner earlier tonight and part of that involved moving my textbooks and things off of the dining room table. While attempting to gather my things into a box I was stung under the arm by what I think might have been a hornet. John then came home and I finished up the last few miscellaneous things that I needed to do to get dinner together. We finished eating and he went to go get a shower. I talked to him for a few minutes and then grabbed my bag since I planned on heading to the living room. As I was walking back through the dining room I was stung, again, by what I believe to be the same hornet that had stung me earlier. By this time John had finished up getting a shower and had come to kill the bee for me. The little bastard managed to sting me in both arms, in inconvenient places. On the bright side, apparently I’m not allergic to hornets.

Anticipation

My boss has been on vacation since the 16th. He, his wife, and his grandson will be getting back into town later tonight. Tomorrow is going to be interesting to say the least. I liked having them gone, but at the same time I’m interested to see how their trip went. I’m sure that Theresa will have a bunch of stories that she’ll eagerly want to tell. I was nice having a break from them for a little while they were gone, but I’m kind of glad they are finally going to be back. I haven’t had much time to list many items on eBay in the last couple weeks, so I’m looking forward to being able to get some more of it done.

I have about a month left before classes start and I feel like I haven’t done much at all. I need to step up my motivation and get some more stuff done, but I just feel constantly exhausted. There’s just so much to do and I don’t want to do any of it… I’m dreading going back to school this fall. I’m just generally discontented at the moment and I don’t know what I want to do with my life. Obviously whatever I’m doing now is currently not working and I need to change things. The only real question is where to start and whether it’ll even make me happy anyway. Maybe I’m just meant to be eternally confused about my life…

Weekend Productivity

Friday I got up and ran off to work pretty directly once I woke up. Work was pretty bland and nothing too interesting actually happened while I was there. After work I came straight home and started cleaning up a little because Uncle Lynn was coming by to finish up working on the fridge. Since we got the fridge we hadn’t been able to make the water or ice maker work. Luckily, all we ended up needing was a different filter and there was an extra black ring inside that needed to be removed. Even just the past few days have been so much better having a way to effectively make ice. I’ve definitely drank more water over the past couple days. I did a little bit of cleaning up after that and then spent the rest of my night watching Netflix.

Saturday I woke up, cleaned some more, and had to run off to the bank. On my way back from the bank I passed my parents house and realized that my mom had my little sister with her so I stopped in. I started getting tired while I was there so I decided to come home and try to sleep for a little. The last thing that I planned on doing was take a four hour nap, but that’s exactly what happened. About the time I got up I had to get my stuff around and head to my parents because they invited me over for dinner. I didn’t realize that my sister would still be there for dinner, but I’m kind of glad that she was. After dinner I came home to shower and get ready to go watch the fireworks down town with my cousin Emily and her boyfriend Casey. After the fireworks were over we made a trip to Denny’s. It was pretty nonchalant, but I was definitely third-wheeling pretty hard. It seemed a little weird since John wasn’t there. By the time I got home it was almost midnight. Sleeping was a definite problem though. I actually didn’t end up falling asleep until this morning.

I started cleaning up the dining room while I couldn’t sleep. I finally slept for a little and then got back up to clean some more. For once I finally managed to clean the dining room. It’s been something that has been on my to-do list for longer than I’d like to admit, but it’s finally done. After cleaning I went to my parents again for dinner. Once we finished eating my mom came with me to buy groceries. At this point I’m just hanging out, watching Netflix, and waiting for John to get home. I actually think that I’m going to give up once this episode is over and nap until John comes home.

On the bright side I’m starting to get over this cold. There were only a few different times today that I went into a fit of coughing. Overall today was pretty good, I just wish I could sleep better.

That Fantastic July Cold

I spent Monday morning hanging out with John. Once he woke up I made up breakfast and we watched Netflix for a while. Then he left to go shooting with his friends before he had to go to work. So while he was gone I spent the rest of my day cleaning our kitchen and part of the bathroom. I planned on working on cleaning up some more today, but I woke up this morning to a cold and currently feel like my head wants to explode. I’ve been tossing back cough syrup like clockwork, so hopefully that starts kicking in soon.

I still went to work today though so I’m fairly happy about that. I ended up being clocked in a little over eight hours by the time I ended up leaving. I was by myself most of the day because two of my co-workers decided to call off. In a way I prefer being alone, especially since I was sick. I feel worse about working when I’m sick because I don’t want to get anyone else sick either. I’m sure that the two that called off are probably going to be pretty pissed off when they find out that they aren’t going to be getting paid for the holiday since they didn’t show up today. One of them hurt his back and the other apparently had “stuff” to do.

At this point I’m hoping that sleeping will make me feel better. I currently plan on going to work tomorrow, but I’ll definitely reevaluate when I wake up in the morning. I don’t want to miss work because I need the money, but at the same time I don’t want to spread my germs around. On top of that if I’m sick to the point that I don’t make them money it isn’t worth them paying me to be there, so it’s better for everyone if I just stay home. Even now I’m having trouble focusing. That might be partially because it’s 2 a.m. and I’m just now starting to get tired, but also because of this cold. Maybe this is why I didn’t really feel like doing much this past weekend….

 

Nothing goes quite like planned…

Summer isn’t exactly going as planned. In one aspect I’ve definitely gotten to spend more time with John, which is a definite plus. On the other hand I still haven’t gotten to get as much done as I was planning to. I need to step up my game a little bit, even if I don’t physically feel up to par.

Physically I have been feeling better in some ways and worse in others. My stomach has only flared up a few times in the past month, but I’ve been having joint pain and really frequent headaches. My health insurance is in the process of being renewed so I haven’t had a follow up with a doctor recently, but I’ve been documenting the symptoms when I remember to and I’ll deal with it once my insurance gets straightened out. The joint pain seems to be hitting my knees the most that I have noticed. I keep switching back and forth between keeping them bent and straightening them out. However, after a couple minutes they seem to be irritated no matter what position they are in and I have to switch or fidget around. Of course it gets a little better when I take naproxen, so the unpleasantness seems to be coming from some sort of inflammation. When I am working I have noticed that my elbows, towards the inside, are unpleasant if I even remotely touch them to my desk or attempt to rest them there momentarily. The fevers have been random from what I can tell. The headaches have been the worst of it though. They’ve been almost daily. Sometimes Excedrine Migraine pills help and other times they don’t even tough the symptoms. I’ve experimented with my caffeine intake, sugar intake, and eating habits in general and nothing seems to be the trigger. Exercise doesn’t seem to affect them either, so at this point I don’t know what they are coming from and it’s driving me crazy. My sleep schedule has also been affected as well. Up until now in my life I have never had a problem with sleep, but lately I have been having a tough time falling asleep and seem to wake up a lot during the night. Waking up is partially due to the ridiculous nightmares that I’ve been having, also almost on a nightly basis. I just feel like even when I’m sleeping I’m not getting decent rest.

I did finally get around to putting my laundry away, then folded John’s, and put most of his away. We started a movie before he went to work earlier and he wants to finish it later tonight. So I’m supposed to be sleeping, but instead I’m writing this because I couldn’t fall asleep. I should probably have given some thought to what we were going to eat for dinner, but I haven’t managed to do that either. We have a frozen pizza, so odds are that I will probably just make that tonight so it’s easier to deal with.

I have felt sort of depressive over the last week or so. That might have been from the events of this week, but this past week was more difficult than most. As my car was going to run out of inspection I borrowed one from John’s parents since they had an extra. When I went to start it I heard a loud pop and white smoke started pouring from under the hood. Of course I shut the car off as soon as my brain processed what was going on, but there was still damage. John ordered the parts that he needs to fix most of it, but there was still a part that he couldn’t find online. As far as I know he plans on going to see if he can find one used. I had planned on using their car for the foreseeable future, but that ended up not being an option.  My parents then bought another car, but they bought a PT Cruzer, which I dislike. I am hoping that my mom decides to drive that and then I can have her older car, but we’ll see which she ends up picking. I ended up selling my old, uninspected car to my co-worker Bryan. He knew what all was wrong with the car, but he wanted it anyway.