Operation Graduation: T-Minus 57 Days

First off: This internship with Jackson Hewitt is killing me slowly. It’s been far more time consuming than I EVER expected. It has been one thing after another with working there. We had one intern jump ship shortly after he fulfilled his requirements. Then my manager got a new job so she’s basically gone also. Which leaves me and three other employees to cover two offices. Both of which are open upwards of 40 hours each week and we’re about a month from the end of the tax season so things are about to pick up speed again. The way it stands right now we have two regular employees and two interns left. The other intern and I are still in school, as well one of the regular employees. So that makes it difficult to trade shifts if anything comes up since we’re all tied up with our class schedules.

One of the issues that we’ve run into right at the moment is actually for this coming Monday. No one was on the schedule to cover for me while I was supposed to be in school. Mike, an employee is being borrowed that day by our Williamsport office, so he can’t cover. Meghann, the other employee is scheduled to cover for Mike at the Mill Hall office, so she can’t cover. Then Chris, the other intern, wasn’t on the schedule so he scheduled a job interview after his morning classes are over and he can’t cover. That leaves me, which I could technically skip class as long as I give the professor a heads up about it, but it’s just the principle behind  being shorthanded that is irritating. However, the way I look at it work schedules, job interviews, and that sort of thing are vastly more important than the 50 minutes that I would be sitting in class. This being for a class that is basically pointless to attend half the time anyway. So, needless to say, I’m not that upset about skipping it. Especially if I can make an extra $18 instead.

I’ve got a pile of school work that needs to be attended to, but we’re still on break until Monday and unless I feel like working on it, I’m probably not going to go out of my way to get anything done over the next couple days. Tonight I’m headed to a gun raffle dinner event in South Renovo and tomorrow I blocked out most of the day to work on a tax return for my Aunt’s dad. Then I plan on taking it remotely easy since it’s the last day before chaos resumes.

At this point graduation feels like it’s right at my fingertips, yet it feels like it’s just out of reach. I have a lot of obstacles to overcome in the next two months and in a way I feel like every other part of my life is being put on a back burner. Unfortunately, that’s the last place certain aspects of my life should be at the moment. I’m hoping that I can avoid burning too many bridges over the next couple months, but it currently feels like I’m carrying an upside down can of gasoline with every step I take. Things don’t look optimistic at the moment…Hoping and praying can only get one so far. The rest has to come from within and I don’t know if I have it in me anymore. I’m vastly discontented and I don’t know how to fix it. John’s been trying to make me happy, but I’ve just been miserable for far too long that I don’t know how to get back to where I was. I’ve noticed that I keep saying well after this or that it’ll get better, but it never does. We’re definitely in a one step forward, three steps back cycle, and it’s entirely my fault…















Operation Finish 2k16: Installment 2

Today was a little less productive than I would have liked, but I still managed to get a few things done overall. Some of this was due to my lack of ability to sleep last night. I had slept for a couple hours before John got home from work, but then I had a lot of trouble trying to get back to sleep once he decided he was ready for bed. Then, I actually woke up before my alarm even went off. Given my restlessness, I just got up and got ready to go to my neurology appointment.

By the time I was done getting ready I realized I had a little bit of time to spare before my step-dad was supposed to be here to pick me up. I took advantage of the time and updated my to-do list for the day. From there I started working on the Christmas cards that definitely should have been sent out already. However, I’m giving this year a “better late than never” when it comes to a lot of things in my life.

The neurologist that I was referred to by the people who did my lingual nerve repair surgery doesn’t seem to be helping all that much. The last time that I was there, before today, she told me she wanted to wait a year and see if anything changed. Well, when I got there today that’s exactly what she told me again. She didn’t bother to do a damn thing about the entire left side of my face, neck, and part of my shoulder being numb… but yeah, let’s wait another year and see if anything else happens. Last time I was there they told me that if there was going to be any nerve regeneration it would happen within a year of surgery date… As of right now, the year mark was actually three days ago… So I’m not very hopeful at this point. I would definitely have to say that I’m getting used to it being numb. There are days where I barely notice it anymore, but if I think about it or if someone asks I can instantly tell that it still feels exactly the same. I have also noticed it if John touches my face or shoulder. I can tell that he’s doing it, but it just doesn’t feel the same as if he touches my right side. I’ve pretty much accepted that the left half of my face is just going to be numb at this point. If a doctor wants to try something I’m all for it, but no one even seems to know what to try at this point. Even the neurologist that I have been seeing has had to ask for assistance from another neurologist because she wasn’t even sure what could have happened. From what I can understand my MRI results were fine, my blood test results were fine, and my nerve looked fine when they went back in to see if it was damaged. Given all of that, I shouldn’t be numb according to them, yet there it is…

After going to the neurologist my step-dad and I stopped at Home Depot. This was the first that I have ever been inside one. Whether it’s just this location or if it’s all of them, the organization inside this store was so terrible that it actually hurt my head a little. The entire store is such a cluster-fuck, pardon the language, that I have no idea how anyone can find anything they’re looking for. They had make-shift isles that were about 10-15 feet long and had one way in, but not enough room to turn a cart around, and didnt’ have an exit area. So to get in you either had to leave your cart in their already narrow isles, or push it in and walk backwards to get back out. I didn’t see anyone attempt backing out while I was there, they just seemed to leave their carts haphazardly in the isles, in the way. Now don’t get me wrong, I’m definitely chunky, but I’m not that bad. There’s no way that I could have even passed one of their carts in the main isle with the way they had all of their Christmas display areas set up. We spent about a half hour looking for some cordless planer that you couldn’t even buy in the actual store. They were only available online and were even out of stock there. I set it up for them to send an email whenever the item does get back in stock, but I have never tried using their system before so I don’t have any idea how long that’ll take.

After shopping we drove to Lamar to Denny’s and got lunch. John had finished installing parts in his truck at this point and met us there. The food was delicious as always and I ended up bringing leftovers home because I have trouble finishing my food when we’re there. Once we finished eating John and I headed back towards home, but we didn’t even make it there before the garage called and said his truck was done being inspected. From there we turned back around, picked up his truck, and then headed to his parents to drop off the car that we have basically been borrowing all summer. We ended up being there a lot longer than I planned, but it was nice to see them at least. I’m just hoping that we can get through the holidays in one piece and get 2016 over with. I’m beyond over this year and I want to get on with my life.

I finished up the Christmas cards when we got home tonight and then started right in on my insurance renewal application. It’s primarily just a giant pain in the ass and I’m glad that I don’t have to think about it any longer.

New twist: I found out earlier today that I have to start my internship a lot sooner than I thought. I actually have to be there at 9 a.m. tomorrow morning to start tax school training. In the mean time, John opened a couple of his Christmas presents. One of which was a shot glass so we’ve been drinking off and on this evening. I plan on putting a decent dent in the bottle of wine I opened tonight also. It’s an Apothic Inferno 15.9% bottle, which I’ve been looking forward to opening since the beginning of the semester. John bought it for me shortly after the semester started and we indirectly ended up saving it for after finals.