First off: This internship with Jackson Hewitt is killing me slowly. It’s been far more time consuming than I EVER expected. It has been one thing after another with working there. We had one intern jump ship shortly after he fulfilled his requirements. Then my manager got a new job so she’s basically gone also. Which leaves me and three other employees to cover two offices. Both of which are open upwards of 40 hours each week and we’re about a month from the end of the tax season so things are about to pick up speed again. The way it stands right now we have two regular employees and two interns left. The other intern and I are still in school, as well one of the regular employees. So that makes it difficult to trade shifts if anything comes up since we’re all tied up with our class schedules.
One of the issues that we’ve run into right at the moment is actually for this coming Monday. No one was on the schedule to cover for me while I was supposed to be in school. Mike, an employee is being borrowed that day by our Williamsport office, so he can’t cover. Meghann, the other employee is scheduled to cover for Mike at the Mill Hall office, so she can’t cover. Then Chris, the other intern, wasn’t on the schedule so he scheduled a job interview after his morning classes are over and he can’t cover. That leaves me, which I could technically skip class as long as I give the professor a heads up about it, but it’s just the principle behind being shorthanded that is irritating. However, the way I look at it work schedules, job interviews, and that sort of thing are vastly more important than the 50 minutes that I would be sitting in class. This being for a class that is basically pointless to attend half the time anyway. So, needless to say, I’m not that upset about skipping it. Especially if I can make an extra $18 instead.
I’ve got a pile of school work that needs to be attended to, but we’re still on break until Monday and unless I feel like working on it, I’m probably not going to go out of my way to get anything done over the next couple days. Tonight I’m headed to a gun raffle dinner event in South Renovo and tomorrow I blocked out most of the day to work on a tax return for my Aunt’s dad. Then I plan on taking it remotely easy since it’s the last day before chaos resumes.
At this point graduation feels like it’s right at my fingertips, yet it feels like it’s just out of reach. I have a lot of obstacles to overcome in the next two months and in a way I feel like every other part of my life is being put on a back burner. Unfortunately, that’s the last place certain aspects of my life should be at the moment. I’m hoping that I can avoid burning too many bridges over the next couple months, but it currently feels like I’m carrying an upside down can of gasoline with every step I take. Things don’t look optimistic at the moment…Hoping and praying can only get one so far. The rest has to come from within and I don’t know if I have it in me anymore. I’m vastly discontented and I don’t know how to fix it. John’s been trying to make me happy, but I’ve just been miserable for far too long that I don’t know how to get back to where I was. I’ve noticed that I keep saying well after this or that it’ll get better, but it never does. We’re definitely in a one step forward, three steps back cycle, and it’s entirely my fault…
We are in the midst of finals week. I had one for Mathematics for Management this morning and I have another tonight for Biology. I don’t really like that our Biology final is at 8 p.m. I guess I’m not a typical college student in respect that I don’t think 8 p.m. is early. That’s kinda getting late for me to be out running around on campus. I just wish it had been earlier today so that I could just be done with it. In theory it gives me more time to study for the exam and stuff, but there’s not really much that I can do at this point. Either you know the information or you don’t: cramming can only help so much. On top of that I have an economics final that I still have to read a few things for, but I have until Friday morning at 8 a.m. until I have to be ready for that exam, so I definitely have time for that one. So far this set of finals hasn’t been a complete disaster. I had one online last week and one this morning, then I have the one tonight and another Friday morning. Now given between now and then I will be working all day tomorrow and Thursday, so that will take some time out of when I could be studying, but I have to work too.
My main plan for the rest of today is to make a timed out schedule and go from there. I seem to get more done if I allocate time to my tasks and try to get them accomplished in a timely manner. The only issue is finding the motivation to get them done. Luckily today I don’t think it will take me that long to get around to doing them once John goes to work. Until he does I plan on spending as much time with him as I can since I don’t know how much I will get to see him over the next couple days as I will be at work until after he leaves for work and then I will probably only get to see him for an hour or so once he comes home from work before we go to sleep. I do, however, love that he is at least here when I am sleeping. I don’t really like trying to sleep when he isn’t here. I just feel much safer knowing that he is close by in case anything happens.
I’ve been making an attempt at being a little happier about my life, so far I’m not sure if there are very many outwardly obvious changes but I know that it’s been easier for me emotionally and mentally. I just don’t really feel as hopeless as I have previously. At this point I feel like managing my time has made a large impact on how I feel about everything that happens during my day. I don’t really know how to explain it, but as long as it keeps working for me I think I’m going to stick to that plan.
As far as the items I’ve been trying to sell on eBay they are slowly going. I’m at least happy that I can get some of them out of my closet. For the most part they are just things that either don’t fit me anymore or that John really doesn’t like. I know that I shouldn’t necessarily get rid of something that he dislikes, but considering I’m his fiance if there’s something that he really doesn’t like, what’s the point in me wearing it, when I am supposed to look presentable for him. Exactly, there isn’t a point, therefore the few things I have that he doesn’t like I might as well make money off of. While i was trying to prepare one of my items to ship on Ebay I was redirected to some sort of survey in which you get free stuff. Well, after sifting through all of their survey bullshit, I filled out the shipping information for my free sunglasses which were a promotional offer for a new line of JP, which I got to pick out, all I had to do was pay for the shipping costs. The shipping costs were only a couple dollars and in a few days I got my sunglasses which came with a case, cleaning cloth, and a bottle of cleaning spray. Altogether so far I am ridiculously happy with my new sunglasses. They actually fit my face tight enough that they don’t slide down my face, which is usually an issue that I have when I try to wear sunglasses. It worked out in my favor, however, so I have no complaints whatsoever with this eBay survey. I don’t know whether they were legit or not, but I got the sunglasses, so I’m happy even if by some miracle they were actually only worth a few dollars, they were definitely still worth it.
I also purchased a new ipod recently. Of course considering they make new ones consistently the one that I actually wanted is already considered discontinued. I ordered it anyway of course because that’s what I wanted and I know what I like. I wasn’t about to bother spending the money on something that I didn’t really like just because it was a little bit cheaper or similar. I ended up getting the 5th generation nano. I liked the screen a little more than the 4th generation nano, so I figured that for about $30 more I was better off buying the one that I actually liked for about $139 altogether with shipping and handling and everything else. I was a little surprised when I opened it though. It came with a clear case that I didn’t know I was going to receive, I even went back into the invoice and packing information. Upon double checking everything I’m not sure if they messed up the order that I made and accidentally included it, or if it was intentional. I wasn’t about to contact them and ask since I really like the case, so I’m just going to chalk it up to good karma for once :p